repository for the occasional perambulatory rumination

i don’t know. i can’t explain it. it’s crazy – i know – but what’s a girl to do?.

i moved to a new physical house this year, and as if that didn’t wreak enough havoc and eat up enough clock and calendar, i decided i wanted a new digital place to lay my head, sooooooo i’m moving to my new e-nest, the barefoot heart.

c’mon over and see me sometime. i’ll leave the light on.

Every cow carries the entire history of civilization / around all day in its mouth. It tastes like grass.
from poet Robert Moore’s book, “The Golden Book of Bovanites”.


picture taken from just inside my front door. apparently there’s a break in the fence somewhere . . .

not that we’re completely finished unpacking inside, but after the moody weather of last week, who could stay inside on such a gorgeous day. sooooo, we decided that one of the major projects of today would be creating a garden for our quirk recycled pieces i like to call yard jewelry. today was only a start – there’s more yard jewelry to be placed, and we’ll eventually have places to sit and contemplate, well, whatever comes. so, without further ado, allow me to introduce you to the beginning of our yard jewelry gardenbox. or whatever.

the entry, a place to mark the crossover from there to here:


a found-object piece created by a friend i grew up with:


the bottle-tree-chandelier, a gift from mr. thrillenity. it’s not unusual to see bottle trees and bottles turned upside-down and pushed into the ground in the front yard. the idea is that evil spirits are attracted to the pretty colors and soon enough find themselves held captive inside the bottle with no obvious means to exit.


pete, a rescued piece:


what event (read: garden) is complete without music? meet singergirl. (she always dresses impeccably.)


our first:


this fella is tired, not lazy. (and he’s made from melted 5-gallon paint buckets.) (really.):


meet spring chicken and his protege:


and last but not least: the cat and the dog . . . who are just not hitting it off:


stay tuned for more pieces as they find their way into the garden we need a name for.

(note: this is what i suppose you’d call a cross-post in that i posted this very same bit on my other blog, i’m sure it’s probably not a nice thing to do, but it’s the first time i’ve ever done this, and well, i just had to today, you see. not only is this true an applicable to both blog parts of my self, it’s My Very First Video. yes, that’s right: jeanne is learning a new marketable skill: shooting a little short video, uploading it, and disseminating it. so, i suppose we could say that there’s more than one lesson here from my morning procrastination bird watching . . .)

every morning like clockwork, ms. redbird shows up to defend her space. she’s a tenacious thing, continuing her task despite the would-be distractions of a nosey cat and a growling dog. outsiders are not the issue, you see. ms. redbird tenaciously defends her space from her own reflection, from her own self. when it comes to protecting her personal territory, she is her own worst enemy.

b.c. (before computers) my system was rolodex cards. those little notched cards were my memory, my vault, my information storage system. i had boxes and boxes and still more boxes of rolodex cards, all neatly and logically arranged in categories – some duplicated for placement in more than one category.

this past weekend we did something most unusual: we sat and watched a movie on television. unable to sit completely still, i sifted through the rolodex cards bearing my favorite quotes, and i was amazed at how many quotes no longer touched me. proof i was somebody else when using my system of rolodex cards, i guess. proof of evolution.

not every card found its way into the recycling bin, but the stack of keypers fell far short of the stack of once was’es.


i’m adding a page of quotes to my blog. let’s pretend i said these things, shall we?

it’s been so long, i hardly know where to start. though i’ve missed blogging regularly (go here if you want to know why), after a while it became almost a dread. what would i say? there’s so much that’s happened – how do i choose? i created this blog to help me distill, clarify, and commemorate each day. to help me cull through each day and decide what to keep and carry. but after over a month of saying nothing, all the things to say are overwhelming, so i shall just start.


perhaps not as eloquently as i wish, but hey . . .

we are in the new house now, sleeping in a real bed, on the floor no longer. once we move the things to their new, intended home, we will be able to park in the garage: a milestone for me. and tonight we hang pictures, another milestone that speaks to our being nested. there are still more boxes downstairs beg my attention (on tap for tomorrow), and my closest is still in need of a few tweaks. i am probably only days away from moving my space from the dining room table to my studio. hooray!

will send photos of the house soon, but for today, i thought i’d share snaps of some the wildlife that comes to visit regularly. (disclaimer: i am in the market for a new camera because i know – i just know – that the blurriness is not due to operator error. at least not always.)

as the cable guy wandered around in search of the easiest, quickest way for him to do what he needed to do, he rather nonchalantly asked, “if i tell you something, will you freak out?” “that depends,” i said, and when he said nothing more, i added, “okay. i won’t freak out.”

“there’s a bat in your house,” he said, jerking his head smartly to the right towards the ceiling behind the fans.

there was, in fact, attached to the ceiling in the hub, a little black spot that turned out to be a bat.


i called my termite guy who said he couldn’t do anything about bats, seeing as how they are protected. “protected?” i screeched in a pitch only slightly lower than the bat’s. “what about me and my new house – why aren’t WE protected?”

he then said he had a phone number he would give me, but offered that first i might want to try this: take a pair of panty hose, he said, and put a balled-up sock in the toe. then open a nearby door and position yourself between the bat and the door. start slinging that pantyhose around in a circle over your head. “bats can’t see,” he continued, ” but they can feel the air current and with any luck at all, he’ll fly right on out the door.”

“about that phone number,” i said.

rosemary, my new best friend, came straight out to the house, and in less time than it took us to pour our drinks in anticipation for The Big Removal Event, that bat (named leopold by my daughter) was off the ceiling and in the back of her truck.

epilogue: though my-new-best-friend-rosemary hauled leopold to a new location, we are not without bats, as we found out at 5:26 a.m. last thursday morning when awakened to the most blood-curling screeching you can imagine.

and right outside our bedroom door, too.

the closed bedroom door.


on several occasions, we’ve enjoyed a rafter of wild turkeys amble through. (a group of turkeys = rafter, though some might effectively argue that a group of turkeys = congress.)



oh, i know squirrels are cute – at least rocky the flying squirrel was cute. but when you set out birdfeeders only to have them overrun with squirrels, well, that’s when you realize that cuteness is in the eye of the beholder.


and these little freeloading trespassers are blatantly disrespectful, continuing to eat even when confronted with a camera or a welcomed, invited redbird.



every afternoon between 4 and 4:30, 2 deer arrive at our front door


where they contentedly feast on dandelions and blooms from our newly-planted azaleas.


eventually, the deer get wind of phoebe (who’s inside),


and inside phoebe gets wind of the deer.


i open the door, and out phoebe bolts, her herding instinct taking over as she chases the deer oh, about 35 steps away into the woods where they turn around and look at the short-legged corgi as if to scoff, “oh, really.”


but satisfied that she’s done what she was put here on earth to do, phoebe celebrates.


and takes huge pride in a job well done. again.


today: floor in our bedroom. no baseboards yet, but we do have floor. gorgeous cherry floor. the guys’ll be back friday. am still hoping, hoping, hoping to sleep in a real bed in our real bedroom sometime this weekend.


sometimes things don’t look too bad from far, far away


but as you get closer,


you see it’s a wee bit larger than you first thought




it’s true: things could be worse, but there’s just no way to get over this, or around this, or even through this – not comfortably or easily, at least – and you realize you’re gonna’ have to deal with this one.


so you call people who have the experience and equipment



and let them help

and before you know it – sooner than you could ever have ever fathomed – the roadblock has been cut into manageable pieces, allowing free access once again, and leaving behind just what you need for building a fire on a once-upon-a-cold-cold day


after an agonizing week of remaining calm and open while trying to find suitable flooring, we found it! thursday we went to the place in franklin, n.c. where we’ve gotten other hardwood flooring only to be told they had discontinued what we were looking for. we considered other options, trekked to the local library to look at their floors, poured over magazines and web sites, then went back to the floor store this morning resigned to getting hickory and walnut when we’d wanted cherry. teresa was there again today, and she excitedly told us that she’d just found a palette of the flooring we were looking for. seems it had been there all along, but they didn’t know it because a single letter had been left off when entering inventory in the computer. AND because they were discontinuing it, we could have it at a ridiculously low price – which, of course, suited us just fine. after a 4.5 hour drive, the flooring has been unloaded and is inside becoming acclimated. just think: by this time next week, we could be sleeping on a real bed in a real bedroom.


we finally have internet access (don’t even get me started) (have been trying to become a comcast customer since 1/16/09). things have been moving incredibly, agonizingly slowly (especially for one who functions best in an orderly environment) as we wait on this one then that one. as we run into this roadblock and over this speedbump.

the first big truck with the first big guys came on 1/17. the second big truck with the second set of big guys came on 1/27 – the day mr. thrillenity was (conveniently) sick in bed. (it’s also the 36th anniversary of the day we met.) since then, we have schlepped small stuff over (a scant 8 miles exists between the then house and the now house) one car or truckload at a time. i schlep during the day, and we both schlep at night.

the furnace went out on us, so we had to reschedule Operation Sleep There until we could get prices, compare prices, make a decision, schedule the new install, and get ‘er done. the new furnace was operational on monday, 2/2/09, and we spent the first night there. on the one week anniversary of the new furnace installation, we woke up without heat. it’s fixed now, though – and we hope it stays that way.

there was the delivery of the propane tank (another story for another blog), trespassers, and more, but today, now that we have internet service, i thought i’d show you around our humble abode . . .

this is what you see (now – hopefully not forever) when you open the front door:


this is our dining room – which now serves as storage room, office, and occasionally, a dining room:


here’s our bedroom – with the flooring that was supposed to go down last week. it wasn’t what we ordered or wanted, so the search for suitable flooring continues.


and until we find floors we can live with and reschedule installation, here’s where we actually sleep:


they may look like boxes, but actually they’re our bathroom cabinets (good news, though: i found a great it’s-meant-for-a-dining-room-but-it’ll-look-great-in-our-bathroom0-against-that-very-wall-just-as-soon-as-my-daughter-can-build-it-cause-it’s-from-ikea cabinet:


because we can’t get to our closets with anything even vaguely resembling ease, these serve as our closet for now (and how do you like our bookcases you see against every single wall in the house?):


then last but not least, this is what will one day (hopefully soon) be jeannedom:


so that, my friends, is where and how we are currently living. not only is every day filled to the brim with opportunities to practice patience, every day is an adventure.

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